What I’m learning from men…

When I decided to sleep with multiple men, I was warned from friends that I would be emotionally attached and end up in a mess with these men.  Well they were right about being in a mess… however, it’s not because I am emotionally attracted, but because I am NOT attracted.  It seems that the more I sleep, these men are expecting more than sex from me.  In stead of inviting me to their apartment, they want to take me to a trip, or want to take me to their favorite restaurant, or wanting to meet my friends…. So it’s actually the men who are getting emotional and not me.  I should be flattered by their reaction, but I am feeling horrible…  I can’t even call them by their names because of the fear that I would accidentally call out the wrong name.  I could be like a womanizer and call them with nicknames like “honey, baby, babe…” but I know from my own experience that it would only make these men feel closer to me. Men are asking for date after date, and I have to sometimes reject with a lie… and I hate myself for being dishonest and coming up with a ridiculous lie.

Now I see how Casanova was juggling… but the biggest difference is that he has NO heart and I do.  I feel guilty for my actions and think about how I am giving them false expectations.  Why do womanizers feel the need to deceive women with fictitious stories? I certainly didn’t have to create a fake world for them to like me…

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I was in Casanova’s apartment last week and as usual, I found many tracks of women… These women must be blind not to see the obvious hints.  They must have fallen in love with Casanova and have lost their ability to see the facts that are lying in front of their eyes.  When I said to Casanova, “you’re the best PLAYER“, he smiled and replied “that’s a huge compliment”.  He was proud to be a great player and had no shame. And as he inserted his penis in me, he said to me “Please don’t sleep with other guys“.

What womanizers think of women…

I got a chance to talk to another womanizer the other day through a friend.  Since I knew he’s a womanizer, he wasn’t going to hit on me nor was he going to hide his secrets with me… He told me that he currently has about a dozen of girls who all think of themselves as “girlfriend”, and doesn’t have a clue that he’s cheating on them. He called them all “STUPID” since he would always tell them ridiculous excuses for not being able to see or call them everyday… but no women seem to argue or question him. He repeatedly said to me, “they’re so STUPID!“.  As a women myself, I felt insulted and wanted to lecture him but unfortunately these women really are stupid….. women can be so naive, desperate for love, that they’re easily blinded by a womanizer.

He told me that he studied about woman as if it were his main job, so he knows exactly what a woman wants to hear and see.  He knows how to make his match.com profile interesting and likable by most women, and he knows what kind of email approach women are waiting for.  He has photos that was pretty obvious to me that he had one of his girls take it, but apparently no girl had questioned him.  I guess women don’t look at match.com after finding her match because if she did, she would wonder why his status is always ONLINE, within 24 hours, or within 3days.  Maybe there aren’t enough men out there who can please a woman like he could… Maybe some women know that he’s cheating, but somehow rationalize the act.

=== ATTENTION ===

Womanizers are really charming, but they will manipulate and take control of you… girls… please watch out for these guys…. they’re out there looking for the next victim.  Womanizers choose to cheat… it’s NOT a mistake.

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I’m still continuing to experiment sleeping with guys without feelings… Having been warned from girlfriends that WOMEN get emotionally attached to a guy after having sex, I wanted to see if I would become attracted… actually for my own sake, I want to get attracted and be released from Casanova.  But even after several sex, I still want to leave the apartment as soon as possible. It seems that some MEN also get emotionally attached after sex, since I am being booked for date after date, have been asked more questions about myself, and talks more about himself…. Men are doing what I ask them to do… but this is not making me satisfied at all.  In fact, I’m feeling bad about what I’m doing and don’t know how long I can continue.  The more I experiment, the more I am convinced that womanizers have NO respect for women and ONLY loves himself.  They would lie about about everything to get what he wants, but it’s always the women getting hurt and NOT him… they have NO sympathy towards women, and that’s how they are able to continue cheating.

What it takes to understand a womanizer…

I’ve been on match.com since March and have met a ridiculous amount of guys for a first date. Most people tell me that I’m too picky and that I’m not giving any guy a chance to go on a second date… and they’re right.  I was always comparing the guys with Casanova, that it was becoming impossible for any guy to come close to me.

But I finally realized that my countless dating was not going anywhere…. so I’ve loosened my boundaries and decided not to leave immediately after dinner this time (yes, I’ve been having dinner at nice restaurants, never paid a bill, but always went straight home leaving the guy wondering why I left).  I told this guy that I would go with the flow and follow his lead.  It would be a lie if I said, “I didn’t think that he would take me to his apartment on a first date”, because both men and women wants to be in a romantic moment and have passionate sex in the future. It just depends on how early you want it to happen.

This might sound insincere, but I wanted to see how womanizers are doing this everyday.  How they sleep with different women everyday without any of them noticing that his penis has been entering another girls vagina the day before. So I made myself irresistible for him, and had sex in his gorgeous apartment in downtown San Francisco.  This was my first time that I slept with a guy without feelings….

Next day, he asked me to come over to his place again…. but surprisingly at the same time, Casanova called to see me at his apartment.  This was a perfect test to see if I could have sex with different guy within 24hours…. shockingly, I realized that this was harder than I thought… When Casanova saw my vagina, he immediately said, “you’ve been sleeping with another guy! Your pussy is different!!”.

Casanova was making a face that I’ve never seen before… He was too narcissistic to realize that I could sleep with another guy and was freaking out.  I knew that I could NEVER tell him the truth, so I told the same lies he used to tell me, “you’re crazy! I am not sleeping with anybody else! You’re imagining things. Really messed up!”, and calmed him down.

Casanova eventually inserted his penis in me again saying, “it feels different. Your pussy is different“… but I just made a straight face and kept on lying to his face… This experience has taught me that it’s not hard to lie…. womanizers has no feelings towards these women, so he could say anything he wants and gets away with it…

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